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My best friend, Brittnee is leaving for vacation in 2 days and she wants me to come to Tyler with her tonight for a “girl’s night”. Basically we are getting pedicures and most likely dining out. Yes, dining out– WHAT DO I DO??!?!

I want to eat something good, but what is there and how much is not too much? I feel stupid asking the servers what is healthy because they usually don’t know and I should know these things. Restaurant portions are usually way bigger than what is healthy so I am confused as what to order and how much.

HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ahh, one of my favorite days of the week… I’ve got super plans this weekend– haha,  not! Seriously though, since I am going to play a soccer game this evening and burn 300 calories… would it be okay if I had a cheeseburger and fries? I am dying for one but I don’t want to obsess about it all day and that’s what I’ll do if I think I am going to gain weight from this burger.

All through high school I was extremely active and I literally could eat what I wanted, when I wanted, and how much I wanted. I never gained an ounce and I took it for granted because it didn’t last long.

2 months after graduation, I found out I was pregnant and that’s when it all began. After I had my gorgeous little girl Macie, I just expected to eat what I wanted and my body just transform into my high school shape. Um, WAKEUP call!!

I drank a lot of alcohol (hello calories!!) and didn’t watch what I ate. I’d eat late at night and go to McDonald’s every day and then one day I decided to just stop eating. So I did. I went from 140 to 120 really quickly but I was literally sick every day. It was not a pleasant experience.

I got pregnant yet again and after Kelsi was born I was up to 143 pounds again. This time I just resorted to throwing up and abusing laxatives. I’ve stopped that thank goodness but now I don’t know how to eat, am terrified of eating the smallest things, and exercise all the time. I just love putting on size 1 and 3 jeans though because it makes me feel good. I went down from 143 to 117 but now I am pushing for 110. I won’t be happy until I get there.

I am so frustrated. See, I ate a big bowl of bran cereal this morning and an apple for a mid-morning snack. I am so hungry but I don’t want a whole bunch of calories to add up. Even eating 1000 or less calories a day and exercising, I still can lose the 7-8 pounds that I’ve been working towards. WHAT DO I DO??!